My grandfather, Floyd
I still feel my grandfather with me. It’s so hard to believe that he’s gone. I know it. I keep looking at his pictures, but I still can’t believe it.
My grandfather was a great man. He was known as “Boy Dog” to his family and friends. But he was “Pawpaw” to me. He was a life guard in his younger years. He loved swimming so much that he purchased his own pool and opened it to the public so that black kids could have something positive to do in the 1980’s. When he and my grandmother proposed to add to the pool by building a canteen for games and food, the people in the neighborhood protested against them. The people said that it would cause vandalism. After that, grandfather and grandmother let it go.
He was a Veteran. He loved to box. He put together his own soft ball team. He also owned clubs in the Tulsa area named Floyd’s Hideaway. From that, he formed his own pool table team who played in Tulsa clubs and the neighboring towns. In his last years, he worked as an elementary school crossing guard. The kids, parents, and teachers all loved him.
I’m going to miss him a lot, but I know he’s still with me.
I’ll be going over to my grandmother’s in a little while to be with my family.
An old photograph of my grandfather and I
On Friday, my mom called me to tell me that my maternal grandfather had passed away. I was so close to my grandfather. I’ve called him “Pawpaw” since I was a child. He raised me (with my grandmother and mom) from a newborn baby until I was 18 years old. He was the father figure in my life, and I’m going to miss him a lot.
He was 87 years old when he passed. He lived a long life.
I’ve been crying for him. There’s so many things that I wished I would have done differently in his last months alive, but I didn’t foresee this happening at all anytime soon. He was a strong, old man. I wish I would have saw him face to face and told him that I loved him. I just hope he knew how much I did. He died alone — without any family near.
He’d suffered from alzheimer’s and seizures for a while, but now his mind is at peace.
I’ve been feeling bad every since Friday when I found out. My head’s been fucked up, and I think I might have an ear infection. I’ve been having really bad headaches. I woke up on Saturday with my bottom, left teeth hurting. Later on it bounced to my left ear, behind my left eye, and on the left side of my head. Now it’s just been in my left ear and in my left temple. No Aleve or Motrin will relieve the pain. It’s finally trying to subside now. If it continues on though, I will be going to Urgent Care.
It’s hot as hell outside. It’s about 97℉, but it feels like 110℉. When I got into my car after work today, I almost fell out! The heat overpowered my little air conditioner in the car. I was glad when I walked into my apartment. There my little dog, Ginger, greeted me at the door by running in circles and wagging her little tail. She’s so cute.
I put on another one of my favorite albums from the late 90’s: TLC’s Fanmail. I miss those days: the music and the internet back then. That’s not to say I don’t dig what we have today. I guess you could just say those were my teenage years. There’s just something about those years I want to hold on to and never forget.
I think I’m going to lay down a little later and watch Empire on DVD. Right now, I’m just winding down with some red wine and browsing the net. I needed this drink, honey. It was a long day.
I need to get up and cook, but I don’t feel inspired by what I have on hand. I need to find some new recipes. I’ve been wanting to try a lot of vegetarian pasta dishes, one-pot pastas, and rice bowls. I’m not vegetarian by a long shot, but I have been eating more veggies/fruits the past year and a half. Raw and cooked. I discovered lemon + avocado + greek seasoning + olive oil makes for a bomb salad dressing mixture. It’s my favorite now; I hardly eat my salads with any other dressing.
Hey there. It’s been a long time since I’ve sat down and written a post for coffycane.com. I can say that I’ve missed it and designing period. I can’t believe I stopped for so long, because it’s something that I’d always loved. I’m back though! I intend on staying and sticking with it this time. Time is too short to let anything get in your way!
A lot of things have happened over the past few years — some good, some bad. I’m not going to complain though. I’ve grown, learned, and moved past some things that had me stressed years ago. I’m not saying that I’m a completely different person and that I don’t get down in the dumps sometimes, but I try not to let shit weigh down on me like they did before.
On another note, I plan on doing several things with coffycane.com. I’ll announce it all as I complete them. I know that I would love to make a blog devoted to fashion and (maybe) beauty. I love my style — it’s so diverse, so punk, so hip-hop, so girly, so me.
Anyway, I will be working to bring fresh, new content soon.
Times have changed so much. I remember the personal domain scene back in the late 1990’s and early 2000’s. Now it’s all about YouTube.
Speaking of the late 1990’s, I’ve been listening to a lot of music from that era: The Velvet Rope by Janet Jackson, Da Real World by Missy Elliott, Kima, Keisha, Pam by Total, Never Say Never by Brandy, etc.
Those four albums have been on heavy rotation. They take me back to my first everything. I remember one of the first websites that I fell in love with was Brandy’s website that was designed around her album, Never Say Never. I was pulled in with curiosity and eagerness to learn web design from that moment. And those sounds!
I’m going to call it a night and listen to Brandy’s Never Say Never.
Here is a drawing I did in 2006 from a photograph of myself as a newborn. I touched up the 2006 drawing with my Wacom Intous5 Medium Tablet. Just having fun and being creative!
Minjae Lee is from South Korea and is a self-taught artist.
I am so in love with Minjae Lee’s art. He is a damn genius. The colors he uses are amazing. Breathtaking.
The 23×15 inch canvas print for The Dream is $520.00 and the 30×20 inch canvas print for The Dream is $700.00. Oh, I wish! I wish! I can only sit and marvel at his work online for the time being. But I will be copping a sleeve or two!
He also sells cases for iPhone 4/4S, iPod 4G, and Galaxy SIII which can be found on his website under “Product”.