Freaked Out


I’m going to be moving to another apartment next month. I’m still not completely healed up yet. I have a doctor’s appointment with another dermatologist February 7th. I wasn’t satisfied with the first one. The first time she prescribed me something, I used it and the next day I woke up with crazy ass bumps. Freaked me out! Ugh. She acted like a cocky bitch the entire time. I mean, yes, my problem is that I had bumps, inflammation, and itching in the first place. However, the bumps and inflammation was down/gone when I went to see her. It’s like whatever she prescribed me triggered the inflammation and bumps. I don’t know. Maybe it’s just that my body is really sensitive.

I asked her to do a skin biopsy the first time I saw her. She didn’t want to do it. I admit, I was upset because of that and said some things I probably shouldn’t have said. But I was frustrated! Who wouldn’t be frustrated dealing with this shit?

I went to her a second time because of the sudden flare up. She wanted to do a biopsy then, but she didn’t want to fill out my paperwork. I left and will not be going back to her.

So, I’ve been off work. This condition is really getting the best of me. I’m always tired, cold, and burning/itching in my armpits. And I haven’t packed anything yet. I’ve gotta get on it, but I’m just really uncomfortable right now. Quinton has been a really good help to me though. He’s stayed by my side the whole time throughout all this crazy mess. I thank him for that. I couldn’t do it without him!

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50 Facts About Me

Here are some facts I thought I’d share about me. More facts will be coming later.

1. I was born on Halloween in 1984.
2. I love swimming.
3. I love Chinese food, but only eat it about once or twice a month (no rice, but yes to wontons).
4. I love pizza.
5. I’m on a no pasta, rice, or bread diet, so I don’t eat pizza and hardly eat Chinese food.
6. I love the show Once Upon a Time.
7. One of my favorite perfumes is Juicy Couture by Juicy Couture.
8. I love kale in my salads better than lettuce.
9. I love glittered personal accessories.
10. I loved sequined personal accessories.
11. I’m not a cat person.
12. I’m a dog person.
13. I hated fish when I was a child, a teenager, and young adult.
14. I love fish now.
15. I’m right-handed.
16. I love and decorate with shiny silver decor.
17. I love playing video games.
18. I love reading.
19. No Doubt is my favorite band.
20. I always have to be covered when sleeping, even if it’s only a sheet in the summer.
21. I really don’t like cooking at all. I just do it because I have to.
22. I’m a procrastinator.
23. I wear mostly black with just a little color.
24. My favorite alcoholic beverage is a red wine.
25. I loved the Goosebumps books by R. L. Stine when I was a child.
26. I have one half-sister and one half-brother.
27. I love gold jewelry over silver jewelry.
28. I love shopping online.
29. I figure out bills months ahead of time, but I always have to figure them out again.
30. I used to love winter as a child, but I don’t like it too much now. Ugh!
31. I used to hate drinking water up until I started my low-carb diet.
32. One of my other favorite perfumes is Be Delicious by DKNY.
33. I seriously cannot get over “Put That on Everything” by Brandy since it came out in 1998. I love that song.
34. I don’t have any tattoos.
35. I love Bath & Body Work’s Marshmallow Fireside candle.
36. I have make-up that I don’t take the time to wear.
37. I’m impatient.
38. Sometimes I laugh uncontrollably at the wrong things and fight to keep a straight face. I can’t help it.
39. I need to work on achieving goals that I have.
40. I hate driving in snow and/or ice.
41. I don’t like going clubbing.
42. I like small parties if there’s going to be a party.
43. Blue has become my favorite color again recently.
44. I hate doing dishes.
45. I’m a former smoker. I quit smoking in early 2013.
46. I like watching Beauty Gurus and BookTubers on YouTube.
47. I’m a homebody. I rarely leave my apartment, unless I’m going to visit family, going shopping, to work, to a restaurant, or to the doctor.
48. When I get a cold, it really distresses me.
49. I was 13 years old when I had my first boyfriend.
50. I don’t have any children.

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Here We Go Again

I’ve been sick for a few days now. My throat’s been dry and sore. I woke up hoarse two of the days, but eventually my voice came back each time. I’m wondering if I’m allergic to something, because the skin condition (hives and itching) has flared back up. My primary care doctor thinks that I have some kind of skin disease. I have an appointment with the dermatologist in February. I cannot wait until I can see him. Even this Zertyc isn’t helping the itch. However, Benadryl anti-itch cream has been working better than the Zertyc.

All the dermatologists are booked up until early February. That’s a damn shame.

Last month I began using a prescription strength deodorant. I used it for like a week and a half when I started getting an allergic reaction. I broke out in hives and itched like crazy in my underarms. I started to scratch. Then it got infected. I had to go to urgent care three times because of the shit. It was no fun. But now, I have the hives again since I stopped using the deodorant and taking the Prednisone. Two rounds of Prednisone and the hives came back each time. Ugh!

Anyway, with that and work, I have been tired. I’ve been lounging around all day. I just hopped on the computer. I have nothing cooked at all right now. I will be cooking a pot roast with carrots, cabbage, and sweet peas in a little bit after I get back from the grocery store. The meat’s thawing out in the fridge and the veggies are cut up. I can’t wait until it’s done, so I need to get on it.

I just received four YA books in the mail today from Book Outlet. They are Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi, Ignite Me by Tahereh Mafi, Half Bad by Sally Green, and Black City by Elizabeth Richards. At Book Outlet, you can find discounted books. Very discounted books. Check them out. I love that website.

They only have so many copies of books in stock. So you have to grab them fast. The books are marked with a small dot or a line at the bottom/top of the book because these are books that were returned or were excess inventory that the publishers then sold to Book Outlet. They are brand new books. However, they have a scratch and dent section also. The scratch and dent books are cheaper because they are scratched, dented, or may be missing the cover.

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Hello, New Year

I just got back from the grocery store. I didn’t have anything to make a meal in the fridge. I just got some stuff to make one of my favorite salads: eggs, kale, carrots, extra sharp cheddar cheese, blue cheese dressing, ham, and cranberries. Yum. It was delicious.

I’ve been staying away from most carbs and sugars. I don’t eat bread, pasta, or rice. I don’t eat corn or potatoes either. However, I make exceptions about once or twice every month and go out for chinese food. I still have to have my cranberries in my salads and my nutrigrain bars as well! I eat my peanut butter cookies every once in a while, too.

I started my diet in late August. I’ve lost 39 pounds since and have yet to join the gym. I’m planning on finally joining next month in February. There’s just been so many obstacles in my way. I even got sick last month and was planning to join this month. Now I need to give myself enough time to heal before I hit the pool or hit the fitness equipment at the gym.

Swimming is going to be my main thing though. I love swimming. I’ll be attending the aqua aerobics classes about three times a week and swimming laps after and/or before class. I don’t know what equipment I’ll be getting on. I guess I’ll find out when I join. I should probably hook up with a personal trainer. So I guess you can say that’s my New Years resolution: join the gym and get fit.

I stopped reading It by Stephen King and Interview with the Vampire by Anne Rice. I did lose interest in It. I probably won’t finish it anytime soon. However, I’m going to go ahead and start back reading Interview with the Vampire and move on to the next book in the series.

Right now, I’m currently reading All the Truth That’s in Me by Julie Berry. If you’re a reader and have a Goodreads account, add me.

I know that I need to stop neglecting my website. I want to write more and keep it up to date. I don’t want to shut it down. I’ve gotta get my ass in gear this year. So I will be writing more and continuing to study on my own time. I don’t know how often I will write. I can’t make any promises. So that’s another New Years resolution.

I cut my hair last month. Again. I had cut it some months back too. It grew back out. But I cut it closer to the scalp this time. I wanted to start over and start with shorter hair. I will be natural until my hair grows back out to the length I desire, but I will be wearing wigs for a while as it’s growing. I have been rocking wigs for about 2 years now though anyway. So even when it grows back out to the length I want, I will probably still be wearing wigs!

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Lose Myself

Today is my birthday! I’m 32 years young. Woohoo! I don’t have any special plans for today. I’m just going to go see my family, come home, go to sleep, and get ready for work in the morning. Maybe next year I’ll do something worth writing about!

Anyway, I can’t say that I’m going to get this website going the way I want it anytime soon. I’m lacking that discipline right now. Although web design is still a passion of mine, my focus is not with it right now. I’m going to stop setting these expectations for myself. That way I won’t be disappointed and have to explain myself if I don’t exactly achieve a goal.

So, I’m not promising anything.

I just kinda lost myself in books, TV, and work over the past few months. Well, I’m still losing myself in those things. Right now, I’m currently reading It by Stephen King and Interview With the Vampire by Anne Rice.

It by Stephen King is a very long book. It has over 1,000 pages. I started it at the end of August and am still reading. It’s kinda slow-paced, but it’s still interesting enough for me to keep reading it. I’m very interested in seeing the outcome, but I do think that the book could’ve been shorter than it is.

Interview With the Vampire is a very easy and fast read. It’s the first in the adult Vampire Chronicles series. I can’t believe I never read it before. I’ve collected all the books in the series but Prince Lestat and the new book coming in November.

I also finished reading Beautiful Creatures in August. It’s a Young Adult novel about “casters”. I’ve already got the rest of the books in the Beautiful Creatures series and the first book in the Dangerous Creatures series just waiting for me to pick them up.

I’ve read other books since I started reading again this year, but the aforementioned ones are the most noteworthy.

If you have a Goodreads account, you can connect with me here.

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Pretty Little Things

I woke up at 11 this morning. It’s a little past 1pm now. Since then I’ve been listening to Madonna’s 1992 Erotica album. I love this album. It’s sexy.

I’ve been trying to figure out how much of myself I really want to share on my weblog and in what direction I want to take while I’m studying. I think I want to have a lifestyle blog. I’d like to talk about home decor, furniture, make-up, food, video games, and even (you guessed it) design! I’d like post shopping haul posts and reviews. Should I create individual subdomains for each topic? I don’t know.

I really love home decor. I do a lot of home decor shopping, although I kind of told myself the other day I need to take a break from it. I’ve been getting so many pretty smaller things that I’ve totally disregarded the fact that there are bigger pieces that I really want.

I’m a very visual person. My love for design goes beyond web design. It goes into all areas of my life: decor, art, furniture, clothes, etc.

When it comes to my style in home decor and furniture, I love the glamorous Hollywood Regency era style. I love mirrored furniture, mirrored photo frames, mercury glass accents, crystal accents, blingy accents, reflective surfaces, silver, gold, black, white, gray, furs, some animal textured accents (like crocodile), etc. I don’t decorate with too many animal prints, but I do love crocodile textured items here and there. I think that my new pops of color (accent colors) are going to be teal blue in the living room, kitchen, and bathroom. They are going to be royal blue or sapphire in the bedroom.

When it comes to styling my apartment, I look to stores like Z Gallerie, Pier 1 Imports, TJ Maxx, Wayfair etc.

When it comes to art on my walls, I really don’t have limits. I love color and interesting images. I love artists such as Minjae Lee, Oliver Gal, etc. I also love adding pretty and inspirational foiled gallery prints in my work areas in the bedroom and living room.

I still haven’t gotten a PS4 yet. That’s another thing that’s on the top of my wishlist!




My grandfather, Floyd


I still feel my grandfather with me. It’s so hard to believe that he’s gone. I know it. I keep looking at his pictures, but I still can’t believe it.

My grandfather was a great man. He was known as “Boy Dog” to his family and friends. But he was “Pawpaw” to me. He was a life guard in his younger years. He loved swimming so much that he purchased his own pool and opened it to the public so that black kids could have something positive to do in the 1980’s. When he and my grandmother proposed to add to the pool by building a canteen for games and food, the people in the neighborhood protested against them. The people said that it would cause vandalism. After that, grandfather and grandmother let it go.

He was a Veteran. He loved to box. He put together his own soft ball team. He also owned clubs in the Tulsa area named Floyd’s Hideaway. From that, he formed his own pool table team who played in Tulsa clubs and the neighboring towns. In his last years, he worked as an elementary school crossing guard. The kids, parents, and teachers all loved him.

I’m going to miss him a lot, but I know he’s still with me.

I’ll be going over to my grandmother’s in a little while to be with my family.

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I Love You, Pawpaw.


Pawpaw and I

An old photograph of my grandfather and I


On Friday, my mom called me to tell me that my maternal grandfather had passed away. I was so close to my grandfather. I’ve called him “Pawpaw” since I was a child. He raised me (with my grandmother and mom) from a newborn baby until I was 18 years old. He was the father figure in my life, and I’m going to miss him a lot.

He was 87 years old when he passed. He lived a long life.

I’ve been crying for him. There’s so many things that I wished I would have done differently in his last months alive, but I didn’t foresee this happening at all anytime soon. He was a strong, old man. I wish I would have saw him face to face and told him that I loved him. I just hope he knew how much I did. He died alone — without any family near.

He’d suffered from alzheimer’s and seizures for a while, but now his mind is at peace.

I’ve been feeling bad every since Friday when I found out. My head’s been fucked up, and I think I might have an ear infection. I’ve been having really bad headaches. I woke up on Saturday with my bottom, left teeth hurting. Later on it bounced to my left ear, behind my left eye, and on the left side of my head. Now it’s just been in my left ear and in my left temple. No Aleve or Motrin will relieve the pain. It’s finally trying to subside now. If it continues on though, I will be going to Urgent Care.

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